Who said love is easy? It was in the beginning, it started out from the initial attraction that made everything come together. Then we tried to understand each other, the more we get closer, the more we start to wonder. We're exposed to a different person's world, their habits, their thinking and a whole new perspective of life. When its too different from our world, that's extremely hard, not easy at all. To be honest, I don't think things will work out fine, it won't go the way you want, because we can't just change our principle, our vision and our value that we're raised up with so easily. Both of you will fight, quarrel to the extend you'd want to rip each others' head off, you'd want to make things right, the way you'd want it to be, but it won't. One of you had to make the change, a sacrifice, toleration and patience, when the other won't. At this point, I can't say things are good for you, I know how much you will suffer and frankly, now I can't see my own happy ending that I thought I would have when we started out..   

We didn't change, our love didn't either, we just saw a part of each other's world that we couldn't understand. 

I love you, but it hurts so bad..
x

If you're not the one.

VERY NICE SONG. ❤❤❤

If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of me as your wife?

I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

'Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
'Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side

I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

Songwriter(s):Daniel Bedingfield

If that ever happens

If one day, all of a sudden, magfall nalang siya with another girl.. I-lelet go ko na siya. Oo, alam kong sobrang magiging mahirap yun sa una pero bakit ka nga ba magsstay sa taong hindi ka na mahal, diba? Or pwedeng mahal, yun nga lang may kahati ka. Sobrang unfair ng ganon. :). 

If mangyare man talaga yon, hindi lang talaga siya yung guy na para sakin. Kapag ganon, alam kong meron pang someone na makakakita ng worth ng isang babaeng katulad ko. Aaminin ko, medyo mahirap ako mahalin. Lalo na pag mahal na mahal ko yung tao. Napaka sensitive at bipolar ko. Mahirap talaga. XD 

Pero I know na may isang tao dyan na makakaappreciate lahat ng yon. I just know. Hindi ko alam kung nameet ko na ba siya o hindi pa, pero alam kong may isang tao na magmamahal sakin ng buong buo.  And I thank You God for that guy. :). 

Mind set

My sister told me, 

"You told me that right now, you feel that goodbye is just around the corner, right? I realized, you feel that way because you've already set your mind to feel that way. That's why every good thing he does for you, you seem not to appreciate it anymore. But you know what, try changing your mind set.. then maybe things would still work out."

I don't know, but those words were so powerful to me. Because of what she said, I realized that yes.. it's because I've already set my mind to whatever I'm feeling right now. I always tell myself that the end is near, I always tell myself that he doesn't really care anymore, I always tell myself that his love for me's already fading.

But what if I try thinking the exact opposite of it? Would things still be.. alright?