Night sky

You were the night sky 

That gazed through my window pane

In this room with no ally

You're the one who kept me sane

My blaze of thoughts grew me fond

Of all the things I wonder

But looking at you, there's this bond

That makes all things blonder

Keeping you gave me second thoughts

Not sure how, not sure why

In this endless battle I fought,

It is you who eager me to fly

I am an old creek house

Who had the messiest interior

But you were the night sky that arouse

The things which made me feel superior

Diamond

There are times I wish I could turn back time and do everything right. I am such a mess for letting everything go with a temporary feeling. With something I thought would never be gone because I was full of hatred. I admit, I still am and I'm still not sure when will everything be gone. I wish I was strong enough to accept the fact that the person you loved the most would still hurt you even if you thought you did everything to make it right. That sometimes, you should realize that the person is always worth all the pain.

It's just sad that I'm too far now. That I couldn't simply go back to the time when the universe still have "us". That I couldn't just knock on your doorstep and remind you how beautiful of a person you are. Cause for me, even if you did me wrong in the past, you are always going to be special. You are a diamond kept in my heart. A diamond which represents the shinest gift I could have in my life. 

But I guess that sometimes, you just have to let a person go for that's the best you could do right now. You have to explore and learn new things to be a better person. You have to let yourself be matured enough to commit for the person you love. 

...and if the universe would open the doors for us again, if the universe would give light to this diamond I keep in my heart, I would gladly hold the key.. And never let you go again.