I'm done with it. I give up these unwanted feelings of mine. I just want to be happy like how I used to before. I'm aware that love is no fairytail and reality will always be on your doorstep, knocking aggressively as if you wanted it to enter. Love is not all fun. Love is not like those in movies. Especially, love is not always equal. It doesn't matter if you give all of what you have or not. End point is.. They will still hurt you.
Though these facts have gone through my system, I know for a fact too that love is not perfect. There will ALWAYS be ups and downs. Ups, to give you genuine happiness. Downs, to give you lessons. That's how it is no matter how much you wanted to live in a fairytale kind of love. It is simply not perfect. Period.
These feelings i've been hiding for so long.. I want to let them go already. I want to clear my mind and just forget all the pain. Things are better now and I know that what I have right now is already more than our unwanted past. Things are way way better now.
I'm gonna put everything on a paper, and finally burn all the bad memories. It might not work at first cause I'm still gonna remember every once in while.. But after that, I promise to remember that I already told myself to let go and to let myself move on.
The time will come I will be completely happy again and I've got to work on it not depending on him, or on any other person. I just got to depend on myself.
This is a silent promse I intend to keep.
