Random Posts I see in the Internet That Makes Me Think Of You.

• "Hey Babe,
  Thank you for staying up this late just to text me. Thank you for caring about my tantrums and mood swings. Thank you for hearing my senseless and pointless stories sometimes. Thank you for reminding me that I am beautiful. Thank you for being awake through out this cold nights. Thank you for the sweet words. I love you. Yes. I do."
• (will be updated.)

Nasa Thailand siya for 4 days. Weee!

Ok, nganga ako ngayon. Walang kausap, walang makatext, walang kumakamusta ng araw ko.. Wala kasi siya ngayon eh, nasa Thailand. I'm really happy for him because finally! Naexperience na nilang magkakapatid ang mag-ibang bansa and I believe God na kami naman soon. :)). So ayun, wala siya. Hindi ko parin alam hanggang ngayon kung kaya niya makipag contact sakin o hindi. Di pa kasi siya nag-ool or what. Pero di naman ako naeexpect kasi medyo mahirap nga pag nasa ibang bansa ka. :D.

This is actually day 1 since he left for Thailand. I just feel posting tonight because I don't have someone to talk to anyways. If we're not gonna talk EVER by tomorrow, it will actually be the first time that we've survived not talking/texting in a day. We've been talking since the first day we met so.. it;'s gonna be a little different.

Kamusta kaya siya don ngayon? Ano kaya ginagawa niya? Anong nangyari ngayong araw esp. first time niya sa ibang bansa? Gusto ko talaga siya makamusta man lang. Haha. Pero looking at the time, baka nagpapahinga na yon ngayon. Ok lang, di naman ako nageexpect na makausap siya today and for the next 3 days. Weeee. Pag ganon kaya mas nakakaexcite yung pagbalik niya! Kasi panigurado namiss namin isa't isa non. :)). This is kinda exciting sa totoo lang. Bago kasi, walang usap usap ng ilang araw. Eenjoyin ko nalang to. HAHAHA.

Nkakakatawa ngta yung magiging pasalubong niya sakin pagbalik niya eh, alam ko na agad.. kiss. Maraming maraming kiss. :* I will be waiting for your return, Ming. :)

I know God will make their whole stay in Thailand, safe. :) 

True Success Will Have To Go Through Failures First

God, I just want to take this moment to pray for him..

His hard work didn't pay off because he didn't reach the grade to be qualified on his scholarship.. I know, it's sad. I've been carrying his burden with me, too. It just hurts seeing him all depressed.. I know he did his best but his best wasn't enough to maintain his grade. I'm really sad for him.. I really am. I just show him that I'm not so that he would, somehow, feel better. 

As everyone say, true success will have to go through  failures first. This is just one of that failures. People do not tend to be on top always, there are times that we need to see and feel what it's like to be on the bottom, too. These things happen for a reason, and I'm pretty sure that the reason is something that we would be thankful for in the future. 

Though this happened, I believe that You have planned a better path for him. We may not not still see it right now but soon.. I know something good will come up. We just have to trust You, God. Thank You.

Amen.

Cheer up.

If I were to tell you something right now.

"I’m annoying, clingy, bossy, impatient. I ask too much. I say too little. I get emotional easily. I have trust issues.. 

These flaws would’ve made you want to leave, yet you’re still

here. You saw past all of that. I just want to say thank you. <3"


Napansin ko rin talaga.. Kahit gano ako ka clingy. emotional, impatient, bossy and all.. palagi mo lang ako  iniintindi. Sorry Ming.. Hindi ko kasi mababago tong gantong mga ugali ko. Maybe because meron talaga akong trust issues. Simula parin nung time na yon, marami ang nawala.. especially my trust on you. Kaya onting ganto lang, ganto agad iniisip ko. Hindi mo lang pagreply agad, feeling ko di na ako agad mahalaga sayo. Alam mo yun? Ang oa. Pero kasi ganto talaga ako. And I want to thank you for staying kahit ganto ako. Thank you kasi palagi mo lang sinasabi na "Ok lang" at naiintindihan mo. Thank you. <3

Kanina lang, I dream't about him. Ang negative na naman. I started wondering why.. and I asked mom. She said na yung mga napapanaginipan ko, yun yung mga bagay na ayoko maging siya, TOTOO. Lahat ng nakikita ko sa panaginip ko, ayoko yung Nigel na yon. Ayokong ayoko. Hindi ko kinakaya. Every time na gigising ako at wala ako sa mundong yon, I always say "Thank you, God." Ang sarap lang sa feeling

Ok, nashare ko lang naman yun. Haha.

End point of this post.. I want to say that..

THANK YOU FOR UNDERSTANDING. THOUGH I AM LIKE WHAT I'VE SAID EARLIER, YOU'RE STILL HERE.. LOVING ME. <3

Maybe.

I really care more than he do.


Promise. Ramdam na ramdam ko yun. Haha. Maybe because I don't know his side kaya ko to nasasabi. Mas nagmamahal ako kaysa sa sakanya. Nakakalungkot lang. Sabi ko na nga ba eh, ibang klase ako magmahal. Siguro kasi first time to. Kung sa bagay, nawarningan ko na rin naman siya noon na pag naging kami, ako na yung tipong tao na di na magpapakawala.

Pero ang hirap din pala. Ang hirap din pala pag nakikita mo na ikaw yung mas nag-eeffort. Nageeffort siya, oo. Pero iba eh. Parang feeling ko, sobra yung akin.

Bawasan ko kaya? Baka sakaling mafeel niya na nahihirapan din ako. Para next time, siya naman yung mas gumalaw. Para next time, siya naman makaramdam netong mga nararamdaman ko ngayon.