Nothing more, nothing less.

Meron akong problema ngayon. Well, hindi naman problema talaga pero palagi ko sya naiisip these days. This guy named ____ likes me a lot. Well, that's what they say. Nakikita ko naman din talaga yun. Gusto niya ako pero may iba na akong gusto. I don't know kung bakit ako ganto. Bakit ganto ako may pake sakanya. Maybe because kasama siya sa group of friends namin? Maybe nga.. Kaya hindi ko siya kaya basta bastang saktan. He had done a lot of good things to me already. Sobrang bait at caring niyang tao.

Ok, It all started with a friend of mine telling me na nagtatampo siya. Hindi ko raw kasi siya kinukwentuhan. So nagtaka ako akala ko kung ano yun. Yun pala, yung about nga kay ______. Sobrang nagulat ako na nalaman niya na nag "loveyou" ako sakanya. Well, hindi naman nagulat dahil nalaman niya talaga. Nagulat lang ako sa fact na binibig deal pa pala yun. Eh pati naman kina Ino at Ola, sinasabi ko yun. Sa mga guy friends ko. Pero eto ang problema ko, SARILI KO LANG INIISIP KO. I didn't even think twice to say those words to the guy who has a crush on me like forever. It just shows that I really don't think about him and his feelings for me. SOBRANG TANGA KO AT GINAWA KO YUN NANG DI NAG-IISIP. Syempre what do you expect na gagawin niya? He made a big deal out of it and start telling my closest friends and other people. Ang lalabas, may gusto na rin ako sakanya.. which is not true.

Okay, aaminin ko. Sa mga ginagawa niya, nafflatettered ako. He's a guy with a lot of surprises kasi kaya I really appreciate the things he does. Pero hanggang dun lang yun. All I can give in return is my gratitude, nothing else, nothing more than that. In some ways, naaawa ako sakanya. Kasi kahit anong gawin niya, he could never take me away from the one I love. Now here's the thing:

I don't know what to do. Maybe I have options.. but I don't know what to choose and how to handle it.

This friend of mine said "Hayaan mo nalang. Alam naman niya na wala na talaga kahit anong gawin niya." Nung nalaman ko to, naisip ko "oo nga naman." Pwede ko siyang hayaan kasi kung dun siya sumasaya eh, gratitude nalang ibabalik ko sakanya. Pero this another friend of mine said "Straighten things out." Kausapin ko raw, deretsuhin na na wala talaga. Pwede rin. Para matagil na laat ng to. Para wala nang maisip mga tao tsaka siya mismo. Pero I know  by that, magkakabad record kami bilang mag kaibigan. Those two options have a very good point.. oo. Pero hindi ko alam kung ano yung tamang gawin. Kung ako naman ang tatanungin eto ang tingin ko.

I think I just to understand him at hayaan lang siya gawin ang gusto niyang gawin. I will always be nice to him naman, hindi yung tipong babaliwalain ko lang lahat ng ginagawa niya. PERO I still need to at least make him feel that.. friends nalang talaga kami. I need him to genuinely accept that fact and move on. Since friends naman kami ngayon, WE CAN ALWAYS STAY THAT WAY. I will even support him in everything he will do especially when it comes to his love life. Willing naman ako dun. Just like to my other friends.  So in conclusion.. Hahayaan ko siya because I know he knows what he's doing but still try to remind him that I already have my own love. Syempre kahit alam na niya yun, he still needs to see proofs that I'm already happy with someone else. Alam ko namang matured enough siya para tanggapin yun.

Hey you, I just want to thank you for everything. I appreciate every single thing of the things you show me, but friends is friends.. Nothing more, nothing less. >:D<.