Cheat, big word

I just want to share some of my thoughts about "cheating". I have experienced it and as everyone says, it is really indeed hard. Yes, it truly is. It can change a person's perspective way more than you can imagine it. I believe that in a relationship, nothing is more painful than being cheated on.. NOTHING.

It's been 7 months since then.. But i gotta admit, it still hurts like hell. Tears still fall just by remembering it. The bad thing about it is that no matter what your partner do just to get your trust back.. it is naturally hard. 

What hurts on being cheated the most is when you think about the memories back when you were still okay. It feels like everything's put to waste. You would just think "If he really loved me, he wouldn't have the guts to look for another one. He would have stayed with you, no matter who you've become."

It's not really about who or how he did it, it's about WHY he did it. You will always wonder.. and I believe that's what makes it harder. 

I accepted him though it was very hard for me. Why? Because he showed me that I am truly who he wants to be with. He even sacrificed so many things just to prove that to me. In those times, I was really in the edge of giving up but he was there to pull me back up. 

I believe that the one that is meant for us is going to be the hardest to get, the hardest to keep and the hardest to accept because through all that, the love will grow stronger.

I admit, loving someone who have hurt you the most is not easy because you will always have this kind of hatred that you feel will never be gone, even by time. But you just gotta believe that everything will be back to normal and never forget the faith you have invested in your partner. For it goes a long way.. a very long way. I accepted him again not just because I love him, it's also because we both know that we have something really special that we know we'll regret if we just throw it all away. We just know.