First stupid fight.

        Well, yesterday was our first fight ever (Puro tampuhan lang kasi talaga yung dati). I didn't expect any of these kahapon. I was very bored dito sa bahay kaya nagdecide akong sumama kay ate mav kasi pupunta siya sa practice ni kuya Joyeth (her boyfriend). I thought he was also there that's why I agreed and came with her. I was really excited because I know he will be shocked to see me. Makikipagkita naman talaga ako sakanya nun eh kaso canceled kasi di' na kami nakapag-enroll ni Jam. Kaya extra-shocked talaga. Yung tipong may butterflies na ako sa stomach, byahe palang. Ate mav then asked me to buy some food for him because she will be buying some for kuya Joyeth too. At first, ayoko kasi hindi ko naman ginagawa sakanya yun. FIRST TIME 'to pero naisip ko na wala namang masama dun. Kaya ayun, I bought him food. Because of that, more butterflies were in my stomach! Gaaaaaah! As soon as we reached 6th floor, sobrang kinakabahan na talaga ako pero more on masaya kasi I will be able to see him kahit hindi naman talaga dapat. :).

         Sina Jade yung unang bumati sakin tapos nakita ko lumapit agad si ate Mav kay kuya Joyeth. I tried to look for  him and saw him practicing. Oh well, maybe he didn't see me. HAHA. Nung medyo matagal na kong andun, (I was waiting for him to notice), finally, lumapit na siya samin. He hugged ate Mav.. syempre, nag-expect ako na ako na yung kasunod nun. I really wanted to hug him already because I really missed him. Pero ayun, HE JUST LOOKED AT ME, TINAASAN AKO NG KILAY TO GREET, AT BUMALIK NA SA PRACTICE. I was like.. whaaaaaaaaaaaaat!? Hahaha. Yes, I know it was just a joke but I ain'y laughing. Instead, nainis ako sakanya. Alam mo yung feeling na nag-effort ka bumyahe, bumili ng pagkain  for him na first time kong gagawin tapos ganon yung salubong niya sakin? I don't know if I'm just being oa or what but I really didn't like his stupid joke. Nung medyo tumagal tagal na, di parin niya talaga ako pinapansin kaya dun ko naisip na.. did I do something wrong for him to be mad at me? I talked to kuya Joyeth about it. Pero it ended up nag tawanan lang kami. HAHA. His wagas faces really made me laugh. Ayun.. then I told myself, "Ah, ganyanan pala ah. Sige lang." I was not being hard or something, NO. Na pissed off lang talaga ako. After nun, tumayo na ko agad because I saw in my pv that he was approaching me.  He grabbed my hand and finally talked to me. Tiningnan ko siya at sinabi niyang sorry. Pero I was very mad at him kaya I told him "Mamaya mo na ko kausapin." and pushed him away. I walked out and sat beside kuya Karl. Nanggigigil talaga ako nun. I tried to laugh pero this time, fake na lahat yun kasi.. masakit sakin gawin sakanya yun. Ngayon lang kasi talaga nangyari lahat to. 

          Then after a while, without talking or even an eye contact, umalis siya. I want to run after him pero naunahan ako ng hiya. Bumaba siya, bibili daw pala ng tubig. While he was away, I talked to Raymond. Sobrang awkward, grabe. Bakit kaya? Kasi matagal na kaming di nag-uusap? HAHA. Ayun, I tried to keep him company. Nung lumabas siya, I even followed him there and talked to him. Then nakita ko na naman sa PV ko na parating si Nigel. I looked at him and he gave this rose. Sobrang nagulat ako nun. Tinanong ko siya bakit kailangan niya pa bumili nun. He said "Sorry" once again. Tapos yung guard, pinaalis kami dun bigla at ayun, umalis ako at bumalik ng studio. I thought he was going to follow me pero pag tingin ko, andun  parin siya. Then I saw him going to the restroom. Jade told me to run after him and I saw him punched the wall. 

O___O <-- my reaction.

I followed him hanggang sa boy's cr. Nakita ko pa dun si kuya Karl, natawa kami pareho. HAHA. Ayun, I tried makipag-ayos na sakanya. Kinuha ko na yung rose. Ayokong nakikita siyang ganon sa totoo lang. Sorry ming~ 

Okay na, paalis na kami lahat. Medyo may awkwardness parin between samin pero yeah, napatawad ko na siya. Hindi ko lang talaga siya makausap because of what I saw earlier. Nag-usap pa nga sila ni Ate Mariel eh bago kami bumaba ng elev. Then I found out that, nanghiram muna siya kay ate kasi ginastos niya lahat ng pera niya for the rose. Ate Mav even got mad at me and told me that I should talk to him now. Dahil dun, nilapitan ko na siya and tried talking to him. Okay na. Mas naging ok nung sabay kaming umuwi. Hahatid daw niya ako hanggang buendia but I decided to stop at empire first and eat. Nag ministop kami then nagpunta nang empire. Doon, kumain kami at nagka-ayos na. We cuddled and kissed. As a sorry I guess. 

And that ended our stupid first fight.

I gotta say, It wasn't easy for me getting mad at him for that reason. I just followed what I feel but of course hindi ko naman hahayaang magtagal yun. I just think I needed a little time to relax first before talking to him again. I didn't even say sorry.. Ugh. Dito ko nalang ilalabas: Sorry ming  if I acted that way. I acted childish and gone mad just because of that. I expected kasi masyado kaya nagalit ako ng ganon. Nag-expect ako na you will greet me with an open arms and hugged me tight because you missed me. I EXPECTED kasi. Next time talaga dapat hindi na para hindi ako nagagalit ng ganon sayo. Ayoko na nun. I don't wanna see that gloomy and sad face ever again. I will try my best. 

And remember, I still love you with all my heart. Nothing could ever change that.