Too long

"Rejection isn't what makes me back off, it is the pure sight of your happiness without me, as to mean I am no longer needed."

No matter how to whom I open up my feelings, I know that no one will ever understand. They will never understand the pain I'm going through right now. They will never see how hurt I am from all the lies and misunderstandings. From everything. 

We were once very happy. No fights, no arguments. We used to be so glad because we know we have each other.. Through all the ups and downs. Problems, big or small, we just overcome it with a smile. No big deal, no drama. 

But right now, things have changed. And I'm really sure it does. I always find myself shedding tears that he'll never see. I don't talk too much to my friends or family about this because deep in my heart.. I still believe that it'll be okay. 

 It's so hard to love someone when you don't know your worth. It's sad when you realize you aren't as important to someone as you thought you were. That feeling when you look at him, and it seems he's okay without you. It seems you're just a part of his life.. Just a part, nothing special. 

....

I wanna be with him forever, no other girl will ever love him as much as I do. I loved him because he once showed me how much he loves me. He once made me feel how to love and to be loved. 

But I'm crying right now. It's not because I'm weak.. It just means I've been strong for too long.