Every night

Every night is a different feeling. Sometimes I doubt, sometimes I don't. It seems like my own feelings play with me. It doesn't give this consistent feeling of security.

I guess I'm starting to get tired of not knowing where I really stand with him. He  does everything to make me feel special.. But sadly, pure words. No actions. He's not even planning to see me this week. *sighs* If I was on his place, I would really do anything just to see me since I'm just a fx away. Hahaha. But no, he's not that kind of boyfriend. Well, it's okay. If that's how he shows his love then I will accept it. :)

I just want something that would slap me on the face saying "He really loves you with all your heart and you have to aee that." That kind of thing. Hahaha. Anyway, should be going. :)