Well appreciated

Lately, my mind's akdhslla. I know what it wants, but there's something that keeps bothering it. No.. Not something.. Someone. 

I know I shouldn't feel this way. It's because of many factors actually. But this is how I felt. I couldn't get it off my head. 

I was okay. My eyes and my heart only lies within one person, one special person. But then, last friday night came. We were at 7th high, partying as always. I gotta admit, I got a litle drunk. Well, maybe I consumed a lot of alchohol though I was not aware. Haha. My body's uncontrollable. I know what's happening and what I'm saying but my body.. It just won't work with me. 

The feels are not new. I've been tipsy before. But this time around, there was someone there for me. Funny thing, I'm not irritated or what. Instead, I appreciated him. He's always right behind me, figuratively and literally. I can feel he watches my every move, my every attempt on getting another shot (That's the prob with me, when I got drunk, I crave for more). He's there. And I can feel his sincere concern for me. I admired him for being so respectful to me. He didn't do anything (touch me, kiss me or something like that) to me even though he knows I'm drunk. I salute him for that. When we finally got home, he even bought my meds for my allergies before he took off from Kamille's room. 

Don't get me wrong. I don't love or like him. I have a boyfriend and I love that guy very much. It's just that.. With that another guy, I just felt something that seems.. real. What I mean is on his side, his feelings for me.. and I appreciate that.